Much has been accomplished! Continue, continue, continue… Keep on keeping on!
What is “will,” in the context of total ego dissolution and detachment from the personality, and total surrender to God in the Reality of Now? In this awareness, how do “I” decide to write, or to talk, or to plan, or to desire? Do “I” become a servant to the Spirit- (here my ego cries out in disgust!) and am I now reacting, in a sense, to the Spirit’s inclings at every moment? (here the ego wants to say MY spirit instead of THE Spirit.)
Is the Spirit REAL? Does It Really, Constantly, MOVE and Plant it’s Will into my brain or my Spiritual Mind, when I Am aware and not blocking it with my egoic mind?
Experiment: Stay Present, and observe (gently) how decisions arise and are made, and where the Will is exercised.
Read: The Power Of Now, by Eckhart Tolle